Hey everybody. My name is Noelle, I'm 18 years old and live in Denmark.
When I was younger I was a little overweight and wanted to lose weight. I just couldn't do it. When I turned 14 I just couldn't take it anymore so I startet to change my life. I lost weight and my mom supported me at the beginning, but day by day I just couldn't see any change in my body. My start weight was 165 lbs and after a year I weighted 80 lbs.
05.13.2009..
I got hospitalized for my eating disorder anorexia nervosa and bulimic tendency. I hating the hospital and just wanted to get out. I got better and 6 month later I got discharged. I weighed 110 lbs..
01.18.2010..
I started at a new school and didn't have any friends at all. I got more and more depressed and later on I heard voices telling me to hurt myself..:/
I attempted suicide twice and then got hospitalized again..
10.05.2010..
I got hospitalized and it was awful!! I ran away from the hospital twice and the police got involved .. :'(
I got some new medicine that made me gain so much weight so I got up to 160 lbs..
8 month later I got discharged and moved to a place where other young people that have problems live..
05.31.2011..
I started at a new school again and still I didn't got any new friends..
And I always binged and purged week by week.. So I didn't lost weight as I wanted to.
Then the summer came and it was good.
08.01.2011..
The school began again. A lot moved school and new people started in my class. It was awesome, cause then I could start over and being myself.
Now I have friends at my school:)
But I was still depressed, and attempted suicide...
11.02.2011..
I got hospitalized again again..:(
But this time only a month.. My class got worried so I had to tell some of them what happened..
03.20.2012
I took another overdose and got hospitalized.. I took 30 pills and the doctor said that 30 wasnt enough to be dead so i got sad cause thats want i wanted.. I got at the psychiatric department (Where I am now) and while I was here I took another overdose. I took 50 pills, but sadly that wasnt enough to kill myself.. I just wanted to be dead..
But thats because I CANT control what I eat and lose the weigh! Its so depressing!
Now I'm actually better and want to lose weight the healthy way.. I want to be healthy and happy, not skinny and tired.. I want to be fit!!
But Im still at the hospital
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Heigh: 5'3
HW: 176 lbs - Bmi 30.5
LW: 80 lbs - Bmi 14.2
SW: 176.0 lbs
CW: 167.5 lbs
176 175 174 173 172 171 170 169 168 167 166 165 164 163 162 161 160 159 158 157 156 155 154 153 152 151 150 149 148 147 146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 135 134 133 132 131 130 129 128 127 126 125 124 123 122 121 120 119 118 117 116 115 114 113 112 111 110
01.20.2012 Since I drank
04.28.2012 Since I binged
05.27.2012 Since I threw up
When I was younger I was a little overweight and wanted to lose weight. I just couldn't do it. When I turned 14 I just couldn't take it anymore so I startet to change my life. I lost weight and my mom supported me at the beginning, but day by day I just couldn't see any change in my body. My start weight was 165 lbs and after a year I weighted 80 lbs.
05.13.2009..
I got hospitalized for my eating disorder anorexia nervosa and bulimic tendency. I hating the hospital and just wanted to get out. I got better and 6 month later I got discharged. I weighed 110 lbs..
01.18.2010..
I started at a new school and didn't have any friends at all. I got more and more depressed and later on I heard voices telling me to hurt myself..:/
I attempted suicide twice and then got hospitalized again..
10.05.2010..
I got hospitalized and it was awful!! I ran away from the hospital twice and the police got involved .. :'(
I got some new medicine that made me gain so much weight so I got up to 160 lbs..
8 month later I got discharged and moved to a place where other young people that have problems live..
05.31.2011..
I started at a new school again and still I didn't got any new friends..
And I always binged and purged week by week.. So I didn't lost weight as I wanted to.
Then the summer came and it was good.
08.01.2011..
The school began again. A lot moved school and new people started in my class. It was awesome, cause then I could start over and being myself.
Now I have friends at my school:)
But I was still depressed, and attempted suicide...
11.02.2011..
I got hospitalized again again..:(
But this time only a month.. My class got worried so I had to tell some of them what happened..
03.20.2012
I took another overdose and got hospitalized.. I took 30 pills and the doctor said that 30 wasnt enough to be dead so i got sad cause thats want i wanted.. I got at the psychiatric department (Where I am now) and while I was here I took another overdose. I took 50 pills, but sadly that wasnt enough to kill myself.. I just wanted to be dead..
But thats because I CANT control what I eat and lose the weigh! Its so depressing!
Now I'm actually better and want to lose weight the healthy way.. I want to be healthy and happy, not skinny and tired.. I want to be fit!!
But Im still at the hospital
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Heigh: 5'3
HW: 176 lbs - Bmi 30.5
LW: 80 lbs - Bmi 14.2
SW: 176.0 lbs
CW: 167.5 lbs
01.20.2012 Since I drank
04.28.2012 Since I binged
05.27.2012 Since I threw up
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