Hey everybody. My name is Noelle, I'm 18 years old and live in Denmark.
When I was younger I was a little overweight and wanted to lose weight. I just couldn't do it. When I turned 14 I just couldn't take it anymore so I startet to change my life. I lost weight and my mom supported me at the beginning, but day by day I just couldn't see any change in my body. My start weight was 165 lbs and after a year I weighted 80 lbs.
I got hospitalized for my eating disorder anorexia nervosa and bulimic tendency. I hating the hospital and just wanted to get out. I got better and 6 month later I got discharged. I weighed 110 lbs..
I started at a new school and didn't have any friends at all. I got more and more depressed and later on I heard voices telling me to hurt myself..:/
I attempted suicide twice and then got hospitalized again..
I got hospitalized and it was awful!! I ran away from the hospital twice and the police got involved .. :'(
I got some new medicine that made me gain so much weight so I got up to 160 lbs..
8 month later I got discharged and moved to a place where other young people that have problems live..
I started at a new school again and still I didn't got any new friends..
And I always binged and purged week by week.. So I didn't lost weight as I wanted to.
Then the summer came and it was good.
The school began again. A lot moved school and new people started in my class. It was awesome, cause then I could start over and being myself.
Now I have friends at my school:)
But I was still depressed, and attempted suicide...
I got hospitalized again again..:(
But this time only a month.. My class got worried so I had to tell some of them what happened..
I took another overdose and got hospitalized.. I took 30 pills and the doctor said that 30 wasnt enough to be dead so i got sad cause thats want i wanted.. I got at the psychiatric department (Where I am now) and while I was here I took another overdose. I took 50 pills, but sadly that wasnt enough to kill myself.. I just wanted to be dead..
But thats because I CANT control what I eat and lose the weigh! Its so depressing!
Now I'm actually better and want to lose weight the healthy way.. I want to be healthy and happy, not skinny and tired.. I want to be fit!!
But Im still at the hospital